It is almost time for another round of blood work. Since last time I've been on a twice per week castor schedule, which has yet to cause any noticeable differences. My lymph node remains and from all that I can tell has not changed in size or shape. Besides the small skin irritations and the occasional mouth sores, the past few weeks have been pretty uneventful. In my story, no news is most certainly good news.
At this point it is wait and see. I don't really consider myself as being sick. I no longer dread the fact that I have a cancer diagnosis. Sure we all have our moments, but on a daily basis we are all getting along just fine. What I am doing is reading and following the stories of others that also share a cancer diagnosis. I am intrigued at how all the stories seem to follow a similar path. It is interesting to read what others are thinking, or at least willing to share about their thoughts as to how they've come to make their treatment decisions.
What I find most interesting is that even though I've chosen to take an alternative path, I don't consider it a good option for many. The American way of life simply doesn't permit it. Many of us have large homes and large mortgages to go with them. We also have fancy cars, send our kids to private schools and a lust for the absolute latest in technology. Most of us wouldn't be able to survive without a supermarket, shopping mall or the ever growing and changing options provided by nearby chain restaurants.
In order to afford these things, we have to work. Usually we have to drive our fancy cars in rush hour traffic to get there, and then again to get home. We want to get a jump on traffic so skip our healthy breakfast and instead quickly use the drive thru to pick up a coffee and donut. Better yet, make that two donuts. We still arrive to work late which puts us on edge for the rest of the morning.
Lunch time rolls around and you've been good. You know you live in this fast paced world so you've planned for it. You either make a sandwich from the store bought processed what we think started out as turkey the night before, or better yet we simply grab one of those highly salted prepackaged frozen meals that you'll just throw in the microwave, quick. Not today though ... You stayed up way too late watching last night's ball game. So today we're gonna pick up something quick at the food court. Not to worry, all the salted frozen food will last for weeks!
We're usually stressed from work or simply late getting home so we pick up some food on our way. Studies show that even though many of us have memberships to the gym, we don't use them so why would tonight be any different? Instead lets just stay up late watching television and learn about more stuff that we can lust after or munch on in the days and weeks ahead. We go to bed late, wake up early to beat traffic and do it all over again.
The human body can take a lot of abuse. We should know, we put it to the test every chance that we get. It's human nature. When we do this to ourselves for years on end, we start to develop issues like diabetes, heart disease and cancer. Then when we get sick we head to the doctor, who shares in the same health problems and American lifestyle as we do and then ask them for for help. They reach into their grab bag of *medical knowledge* sold to them by those selling the same medicine that they are now so proudly prescribing. They either say that there is a pill for that or that there is not a pill for that.
Here is what boggles my mind the most from all of this. This post is full of stuff that each and every one of us already know. The problem is that we don't know how to fix it. We can't even trust the information that is given to us since it is either published by or largely persuaded by the lobbies and large corporations that want to sell us more goods.
Besides selling everything, quitting your job, moving to the mountains and starting your own organic farm to feed your own family, I don't have an answer either. This is the world we live in and we've done it to ourselves. What is sad is that there was so much money in it that we decided to spread our American way of life across the entire globe. Now we all share in the steadily increasing risk of cancer and other chronic diseases.
Maybe this is what December 21, 2012 is all about. Just maybe things will be made very clear so that on the 22nd of December, we all know the correct path. Or quite possibly the only ones who survive the apocalypse will be those who sold everything and moved to the mountains with the foresight of a sustainable food and clean water supply. Or clearly, it is a bad thing to have time on ones hands (and no fluoride in ones water) to think about stuff like this.